Burned Wood, Remaining Calm in the Face of Chaos, & Thanksgiving - Turning work to play and play to work
on my way home right now from atlanta to orange county....
if you know anything about me in this time of my life this is probably one of the most anxiety-provoking, unsure, scary, alcohol-craving, worst/best episode to put myself in.
I hope this time when I go home, How I've Changed SHOWS, I remain responsible not only in my studies but more importantly in my character,
I remain awake spiritually and consiously, I don't emotionally fall apart
I uphold responsibility to FEEL and validate everyone's humanity at home,
like as if I loved them as much as my child, because I've never related to my close group that way and it's about time I do.
Not only for laughs or adventure or good times or company, but to actually deeply love and appreciate them. and it should come out effortlessly nonverbally, if I am there in that state.
I wish for us to talk, I wish a lot of things for us, to figure out how to come together again. Sigh.
I guess for this Thanksgiving, I'll be gaining patience and long suffering.
Be ready to throw out 95% of who I am, the old parts that constitute what I think is me, be ready for change, to use the firewood pieces of me to be thrown into the fire as fuel to propel me forward.
Thank you AA, Thank you Jordan Peterson, thank you ben shapiro, thank you prager... thank you Gym, thank you Nat and thank you Krista and strykr.... We can do this.
if you know anything about me in this time of my life this is probably one of the most anxiety-provoking, unsure, scary, alcohol-craving, worst/best episode to put myself in.
I hope this time when I go home, How I've Changed SHOWS, I remain responsible not only in my studies but more importantly in my character,
I remain awake spiritually and consiously, I don't emotionally fall apart
I uphold responsibility to FEEL and validate everyone's humanity at home,
like as if I loved them as much as my child, because I've never related to my close group that way and it's about time I do.
Not only for laughs or adventure or good times or company, but to actually deeply love and appreciate them. and it should come out effortlessly nonverbally, if I am there in that state.
I wish for us to talk, I wish a lot of things for us, to figure out how to come together again. Sigh.
I guess for this Thanksgiving, I'll be gaining patience and long suffering.
Be ready to throw out 95% of who I am, the old parts that constitute what I think is me, be ready for change, to use the firewood pieces of me to be thrown into the fire as fuel to propel me forward.
Thank you AA, Thank you Jordan Peterson, thank you ben shapiro, thank you prager... thank you Gym, thank you Nat and thank you Krista and strykr.... We can do this.
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